A blogger’s musing on worrying about one’s own writing.
Firstly, if anyone is thrown off or scratching their head because of the redundant title, this article explains it quite astutely. In a nutshell, it is an internet culture meme inspired by The Simpsons.
The crux of my thoughts and feelings today, weighs on my higher-than-usual sense of self-consciousness and self-doubt, about where I stand in life in general, as well as my writing. Especially in matters of love, romance, and sexuality, where I have bared my proverbial neck to the world at large. It seemed to be especially acute upon waking up this morning, after having slept on the previous day’s blogs. After having written something that I felt really proud of in my first article on gender equality, I couldn’t help but feel a little unnerved by my follow-up to it yesterday. It’s almost as though I gave myself a field assignment, and came back with an unsatisfactory report.
Perhaps I am just overthinking it. I have been accused of thinking too hard about certain things. What that stems from, is a life-long concern about being misconstrued or misunderstood, something which I have touched on before in my existence as an introvert. And I still carry a baggage claim of self-doubt inflicted upon me in my failed relationship, where I feel an overwhelming need to counteract the stereotype that all men care about when it comes to women, is sex. In chronicling my journey through life in a daily blog, there are instances where I try to describe what it is like to be so conflicted, and to have so many counterbalancing thoughts to deal with, but I am not sure if I do the problem any justice with my writing. If there is a single point that I am trying to make, it is that, I have a long history with fighting against misunderstanding, and because of that, there are times, like today, where maybe I overthink about things which I have already shared with the world at large.
In an attempt to pin a pretty little bow on this post, I will say that my day to day journey continues to challenge me, and I find myself at a point in life where there are still more questions than answers. Those of you who have read, and continue to read my musings, I truly and humbly thank you. I don’t where this voyage of discovery in the blogosphere of life will take me, but I am glad to have good people along for the ride.